I've written a lot today, but I'm bored at work and I told myself one of the purposes of this blog was to be an outlet for my thoughts, feelings, temptations, etc. and that when bored or tempted to jack off or surf porn or cruise during work hours, I would blog instead.
I've had some interesting thoughts about gaydar lately I want to blog about.
We all know what gaydar is; I don't need to define it. Well, I have superb gaydar. I can look across a room or crowded street, or watch TV commercials and immediately know whether the guy is queer or not. I've always had an exquisite sense of gaydar. I have no idea where it comes from. Nothing is ever spoken; no gesture is ever made. I read that SSA people are extremely detail oriented, which is why we pick up on various subliminal cues that regular folks might not see. Maybe that's true and maybe it isn't but for me it's just a feeling I get. I just know.
When I'm at a store and my gaydar goes off, my physiological reactions are quite odd. I get light headed and my breath leaves me. My stomach tickles and I start to tremble. I usually get a chub. Gaydar in the past has usually be used for a quickie. Anonymous sex usually ensued w/in the hour, if not the next 15 minutes. I realize how disgusting that sounds but that's the way it is. A lot of dudes use their gaydar the same way.
Perhaps gaydar, however, may be something deeper than just subliminal cues we pick up on that aid us in our sex hunt.
As I wrote earlier we are all sons and daughters of God and lived w/ him before we came to earth. I personally believe that before we came to earth we knew what trials and hardships we were going to face while here on earth. I think that I knew I would struggle w/ SSA and have a sex addiction. I believe there was groups of us and that we knew we would carry the same cross. Almost like a band of brothers in heaven, so-to-speak. Of course, the veil took that personalization away but we were still left w/ some sort of a recognition of those other spirits from heaven that would deal w/ these issues. That is what I think gaydar is. When I meet somebody and get that unspoken sense or feeling that he's gay, it is my spirit recognizing that I knew him before that would deal w/ these issues too.
Kind of a deep, interesting way of looking at things.