I have been doing a lot of research lately on chemical castration. Chemical castration is using drugs or medication to reduce sex drive/libido. In various studies it has shown diminished desires for deviant sexual behavior, less frequent sexual fantasies, and greater control over sexual urges. While I don't believe chemical castration is a fool-proof method to completely counter or thwart my deviant sexual behaviors (it's all in my head!) I think it may be just the ticket to help get me some much needed and desired control, sobriety, and time between me and my addictive behaviors. So I made a Doctor appointment for tomorrow to possibly get a Depo Provera shot.
I do admit I am nervous about the side effects the Depo Provera shot can cause (not libido-reducing). Being as how Depo Provera is female birth control, things such as weight gain, breast enlargement, voice changes, reduced body hair, and loss of muscle mass can and do occur! I know I have a lot of deep-seeded issues, but wanting to be a woman or be more feminine sure isn't one of them. However, I'm willing to do it if it's going to help me get my feet back under me and my head out of the clouds.
I am going to discuss with my Doctor other drug alternatives; possibly other anti-depressants aside from Prozac and Paxil which tend to decrease sex drive. Perhaps there's something else I could try before I actually go the Depo Provera route. I'll let you know how my appointment goes and what happens. Stay tuned.