Thursday, March 26, 2015

3rd Year Anniversary

Because I was so checked out on life last year (2014), I actually thought this was my 2-year blogger anniversary. But in fact, I am now in my 3rd year. I had to review the timeline of my posts 4 times to verify it is indeed my 3rd year 2012, 2013, 2014 and now, 2015.

So last year on my 2 year post I said I was losing. And I almost did; in every way you can imagine. The fact I made it through last March w/o putting a bullet in my brain is amazing. Then the relationship shortly after that when I almost walked away from my wife and children. The smoking. The drinking. The horrendous addiction cycle last summer and fall. Whew. What a stellar year....NOT!

But, I am starting my 3rd year by confidently saying: I am winning. I've come a long way and I realize I am happy. Last year was the shits, but I look back on it as 'necessary roughness.' I learned a helluva lot about myself and my life and what I need to make me happy. I'm good. I'm satisfied w/ where I'm at and where I'm headed. This year, thank heaven, I can say that I am headed in the right direction. Let's roll on...



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  1. I am really proud of you!! Way to go!! May I ask how you were able to turn things around? And, I am so glad that you are happy, that you are thriving, and that life is treating you well. I have really worried about you...

    I love you, happy day, Duck

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    1. Thank you Duck. And thank you for always being there. :) I really don't think it was one particular event that happened that ignited a fire that helped be start coming around. I think it has been just a slow, quiet progression out of the state I was in. And it has taken months. It's almost like waking up from a dream.

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